it for me?

Well, I am finally doing it...blogging.  Everyone kept asking me to, so I figured I would give it a try.  I don't particularly love to write, so we will see how this goes!  I am guessing that most of my thoughts on here will be pretty scattered.  That is kind of how I think most of the time. 

I don't really know where to start with this blog.  Life has been pretty different for me lately!  What a difference a year makes, huh?  This time last year I was getting ready to attend the National Abortion Federation (NAF) conference in Oregon.  This year I am blogging on pro-life issues.  God is pretty amazing. 

I just recently got done reading The Shack.  I don't know if you have read it, but if you haven't, you should.  I would have to say that book has really changed my spiritual life.  Not like this hasn't been a time for radical change or anything for me :), but really, it is an amazing book.  So, read it.  That is my book choice of the month.  Haha!  Now I may have to keep that up! (choosing a "book of the month")   :) 

I am going out to my place of former employment to sidewalk counsel tomorrow.  It is not my first time or anything.  But, everytime I go, I am reminded of the deep sadness that lingers over that place.  I am reminded of the tension.  I am reminded of the friendships that were broken.  And I am, of course, reminded of all the lives lost.  I don't know if you ever get comfortable going out to the sidewalk of an abortion clinic...I hope not.  I hope that doesn't ever feel "normal" to me.  I hope that it will always make me feel uneasy.  When I feel uncomfortable, I am reminded of how much I need Christ.  So, I don't ever want to lose that when I am witnessing to those who feel they have no hope. 

I was on the Scott Hennen show today and feel pretty yucky about it.  I was scheduled to be on there to talk with Alan Colmes.  You may remember him from Hannity and just Hannity.  Well, I thought that it would just be a discussion between Alan and myself.  But it turned out to be something entirely different.  There were actually FIVE pro-life activists "ganging up" on Alan.  I didn't like that.  I actually have a lot of respect for Alan Colmes.  We agree on a lot of policy...abortion is just not one of those things.  Anyway, I felt terrible about the whole thing, so I decided to send Alan a message.  I needed some atonement from Alan Colmes. :)  Well, I received the nicest response from him.  I feel better about it.  You know, I keep saying that I will learn from all of these media traps I keep getting put into, but I don't seem to be doing a very good job at "learning."  I have a love/hate relationship with the media.  It's just not my goal, you know?  My goal is to be on the front lines of this abortion issue.  I want to be out there sidewalk counseling with all of you.  I want to encounter the same troubles you have with opposition and then work to help all of you deal with those struggles.  Media seems like a necessary evil.  Sometimes it is really great...I am primarily talking about the secular media. 

I guess this will close out my first official post.  I can't say there was anything of substance in here...just my thoughts on the day.  It's kind of like typing therapy. :)  Maybe this blogging thing won't be so bad.